Saturday, February 07, 2009,6:19 pm
i havent been using the com at all all week!
except in com lab in school playing viwawa, lol
i hate whats been happening this past week.
everything since you called me last monday.
its made me a mess - emotionally and surprisingly physically too.
and i hate myself for allowing all this to affect me.
after blurting all this out to some friends,
and after Dzone meeting that day.
i've decided to STOP! just stop it 100%.
i need something better, and i want something better(:
okay, i admit i stutter to say it now,
but i KNOW, soon i'll be able to proclaim it confidently! ^^
because of this academic week, i've spent much of school time with sm and bk.
and i really see a new side of them man,
a nicer side. haha.
i seriously dont care about what others say about them, they're my friends man.
i hate to admit it, but they are gentlemanly, they really are.
we dont really do much, basically eat, sleep, play cards, play com, play ball and talk rubbish.
they really know how to cheer someone up, and though they dont know it.
and probably never will. haha.
everytime i was just about to go crazy in tears,
seriously just on the brink of it.
they'll always say something, or do something that'll make me laugh again.
thanks(:
anyway, manprit and i, as usual.
have been on an emotional roller-coaster.
seriously man, sometimes i just dont understand.
hahaha, but we have each other!
also, we got our classes le.
i'm in 0936.
lols, its like the laaaaaaast class i think.
and it still sounds weird saying 09 instead of 08. hahaha.
i really hope next week will be a better week.
please.
.
.
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courage, confidence, boldness and security.
heartofGodchurch